A Wonderful Day

I decided I wanted to have a wonderful day today. I've been glum too long.


The music was nice driving to work, and a ladybug landed on my windshield.  I love that.


Then, there was a car blocking three (3) parking spaces when I got to my parking garage at work. I left a "YOU SUCK!!!" sign on that car. That felt good.


Then when I got to the doc center, I found this note on my chair:

So, I got a free breakfast!  Fantastic!


So, at work I had decided not to do any more of Fred Lowe's work, because he sends it back every time and tells me I messed it up.  It's easy not to do his work, because just last week he started sending his requests to EVERY regional center, although he is technically "ours."  He thought he was in hog heaven as there was always somebody ready to pick up his work right away.  Heh.  Once he even got the same job done twice, due to lack of communication between regions. Well, it's now Tuesday and NOBODY picked up his work today.  He managed to piss off every operator in every region in less than a week!  Watching his work rot in the email inbox felt great.


After a couple of hours he emailed to find out if anyone was working on his job?  My co-worker, of above free-breakfast-note fame, responded "no" in a very wordy way that made it sound like he would be serviced soon (a skill I have watched him develop over the years, and greatly admire).


We also all wonder what his secretary does, as she doesn't appear to do anything but read his emails, which he always copies her on. She also has nothing but complaints. We are all of us apparently too through with the pair of them.  It felt just great to have avoided a Fred Lowe job for an entire day.  Our evening operator finally picked up Fred's job (there are other users he hates more than Fred).


Oh, and on a forum I have been on for a couple of  years, one of the other members is quoting me in her signature.  I was really honored for the past few weeks since she did that.  Then today she said something really amazingly great, and I started to comment on it, when I just made it my signature instead, and I made it the same blue font she used for my quote in her signature.  That was one of those really inspired actions that always make you feel good all day after doing it.  Like all actions should be.  Oh, what she said was:  "Everywhere we have been has contributed to where we are going and no place seems more peaceful or joyous than where we are right now."  Another little "joke" we have going is that she and I will be the next forum romance.  Yes, I have been without a man for too long!!


When I got home I did the first of a series of belly dancing classes I recorded.  It was the perfect exercise to do in the 4 foot square space I have in my room.  It was really fun, not a bad workout, and a great way to dance without needing a partner, and to feel sexy without having a partner!


Dinner tonight will be a sandwich leftover from work yesterday, so I will be eating in the "freeconomy" today.  Yay!


And American Idol and Dancing with the Stars are on tonight!  I'll curl up with Lulu and fall asleep listening to her purrs.  It was a wonderful day and will be a wonderful evening.


And how was yours?

On Widowhood

After my husband died he filled me. He had loved me so much that the love he left behind just flowed through me unceasingly, and it was all that kept me going. And after a while I realized he was gone, and it wasn’t his love that was filling me up any more, it had become something else. It was divine, so I suppose you could say I found god’s love. It gave me strength, so I suppose you could say I found inner strength. Whatever it was, and Whoever it belonged to, it was unrecognizable to me. It was Someone or Something I had never seen or felt or heard before. I had no words to describe it. It was a Zen koan. It was a riddle I must solve, and I knew the answer would blow my mind when I finally figured it out. It did. The answer was one word long. The answer was: Me.

David and I and God and Everyone Else and Mother Nature and Infinite Intelligence and Divine Love and Cosmic Energy and All Life and Jesus and Yahweh and Your Supreme Being of Choice all met my Inner Being and we became One: Me. I found Me for the first time since I began my search timeless eons ago. A search that led me on all my life’s adventures. Oh my fucking god.

So, yes, my husband’s death was tragic. I would have wished for many more years of his physical presence, and remained as happy and blissful as I was. But, had he not died, I would not have found Me so intensely. And I would not have found You, either. Because now that I have found me, you seem so alive and amazing to me. It was a blessing that my dearly loved husband died, even if things that remind me of him still tear my heart up. Life is on my side. The Dark Force will never overpower me.
So, if there are any widows out there and if by any wild chance you find your way to my blog, I love you and send you goddess hugs and know, even if you don’t, that your pain will lead you to where you belong. It is a gift. There are no “supposed tos” attached to it. It’s your pain, and you get to choose what to do with it. Nobody else can tell you how to use it. Others can advise you (and they will), but only you can know. Your pain will only speak to you and will patiently wait until you are ready to reveal its secrets.

Someone blogged about me in China!

I have a young Chinese penpal. I met her when she was 15 and she is now sweet 16.  She's the little girl I never had - pouty, moody, delightful, silly, full of mischief, open and loving. She calls me "grandmother" and has totally won my heart and I hope she never leaves my life. I don't know what she is sitting on in this picture - doesn't it look like a toilet seat? (?!)  She just sent me this email.  This is her first and only blog page in English. I subscribed to her blog ("sbwgegiapy," below), but of course I can't read it since it is in Chinese.  This is her email (including her picture):

Subject:  One of my articles on my blog (I wrote it for you)

From majestic mountains and valleys of green to crystal clear waters so blue

this wish is coming to you

It's joy to know you

wishing the nicest things always for you

not only today

but all the year through because you are really a joy to know

A friend is a loving companion at all times. When I think of you the miles between us disappear

You're wonderful friend, and I treasure you more with every year

Lydia

Thank you from the bottom of my heart

You are my first friend abroad

Though we are not at the same age

You tell me,teach me a lot

A lot......

When I once met you

You looked so kind in your photo

I was pessimisitic about my future then

You wrote to me

You taught me that everything would be fine

You make me optimistic

I love my life because of you

You encouraged me when I was sad about my study

You told me many things about your family

You are such an excellent penpal

I believe that we will meet each other face to face

And I will move to tears

Because of you

You are like my family

I do think you are the angel that God sent me

When I was down

Thank you and thank you

Hope you can see it

Though my English is not very well,I think you can understand.

April Fool 2010

I had meant to keep up with my blog better than this, and cover more subjects than just document centers, but ever since I walked into work a week or so ago and saw this sign on the door (posted there in haste as my co-worker had run home to a sick child), I have had no time to think! I was just extremely grateful that my co-worker realized that although my shift supposedly starts at 10:30 A.M. that I realistically would not have arrived and gotten myself up and running until at least 11 A.M.! And I also think this is perfectly in the spirit of April Fool's Day. I'm an April Fool every day!

Also in the spirit of April Fools, we are up to Jan. 19 in my niece's cute calendar (see my post of March 6, 2010 entitled "Just Another Saturday in My Whole New Life") and I am completely stumped by this calendar page. I can't figure out what they are talking about.

And I, who consider myself such an expert on document centers, have come to fear that I won't be able to keep up in them much longer. It seems that lately we have gotten requests that far exceed the skills in our document center. I just sent an email to one of our regional doc centers to thank them for saving my butt on many occasions. I told them I am in awe of their skills, they were my heroes, and I wished I had an autographed picture of all of them. I've sent them stuff that would have been hours of work for us in our center, working on it in shifts around the clock, and they would get it done in 20 minutes. And today our manager had to search far and wide to find someone to do an Excel job with formulas. She finally found out that our accountant could do it! And we are getting documents in now with algebraic equations! And documents in Spanish or Chinese, which no one in our center speaks, nor do we have keyboards to accommodate those languages. Someone in Orange County wanted to know if we could do handwriting analysis?  Denver wanted to know can we translate Korean?  My job has become find out who knows how to do the job more than having the ability to do it myself. Which is not at all scary.